1/10/23 @@@ Smoked the last cigarette 7:45 pm

 This is the final stick.  No more after this.  The headache crept in.

Now the real battle begins.  If I don't quit, I will end up like the chain-smoking chimpanzee.  I need to fight the Dark Depression.

I need to save myself from me.  My biggest enemy is me.

I need to strengthen the meaning of my life.  I need to live my story.

All positions are secured.  All deliverables are secured.  I am indeed complete.  I passed the test.

Now to get on with my life.

Fight cigarettes, the ever-going battle.  I only started smoking in September.  So I can still quit.  There is plenty of time to quit before the year ends.  Now I know, I smoke because I am depressed.  It is not so much because of Nicotine Addiction.  I was self-medicating.

There is nothing wrong with my perception.  I write as I see it.  That part is now complete.

If I am God, I should call the shot.  I decide for myself.  However, that is not the best judgment on my side.  I should listen to Lao Tzu.  As long as I can run, it doesn't matter where I run.  The scenery is just the backdrop.  The front scene is inside my mind.

I just took a vote.  No running Bukit Kiara.  The deal is closed.  I run the Double Mobius Strip instead.

Believe your truth
Live your truth

Trust your truth

That is what I will do.  Everything that you believe in is true to you. 

You have your way and I have my way.  As for the only way, the right way, there is none -  Fredrich Nietzche

Hence I accept my thoughts once and for all.  I am the Creator's Most Loyal Soldier and I had delivered my part of the deal.  Now is to claim my bounty.  I stake my claim on Sparta 4964, the consciousness bestowed upon me.

This is no accident.  The journey had been chartered from the beginning.  The journey is a build-up process to show me what it takes to be the top dog in a dog-eat-dog world.  I made it.  I am ready to move on.  From sea to shining sea.

In other words, it is game over.  Now is to start on a new game.  I had reached the last door.  After 24 years, it is a done deal.  With the Shogi move as the final showdown.

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